Negativity is nonsense!

That's it in a nutshell. Pretty self explanatory. Short, sweet, and too the point. NO negativity. NO excuses. NO giving up. Period. No turning back. You are only gonna make it as far as your mind allows you too. If your mind is clouded and cluttered by negativity, then chances are, you will quit early. No one wants to be a quitter. Negativity comes from insecurities.  Let's be real and raw here for a minute... I am not ashamed to tell you how my mind works when my insecurities are on the rise.

I will never be small.
I am too fat for this or that.
I can't walk.
I can't breathe.
I can't do what they are doing.
I will always be fat.
I might as well quit.
it will take me 40 yrs to lose this.
She looks better on that treadmill than me.
I can't eat another piece of chicken.
They are laughing at me.
No one believes I will do this.
I have to have a cheeseburger.
NOBODY CARES!!!

Well guess what.
It doesn't matter who cares.
It doesn't matter who is looking.
 It doesn't matter how much farther they walk.
 I may be too fat to do that today but if I don't try I will always be too fat.
People are waiting for you too quit..all the more reason to keep going.
 Rome wasn't built in a day.
Put something else on that chicken and pretend its cake.
Let them laugh.. but more than likely they arent and if they are they need to grow up. Not your problem.
Cheeseburgers rot your insides.
Nobody cares is right... nobody cares how fat you are. The ones that matter don't mind and the ones that mind don't matter!!!

See.... it's all in the way you look at it. Stop the negativity! We don't have time for it! Stop with your excuses! DON'T you even think about giving up!! Much loves peeps!

P.S. this post was more for me than anyone!

Notice the small stuff.

Good Monday morning peeps!! All too often when we are wanting to lose weight, we want to lose it right NOW. Like yesterday wouldn't have been soon enough. I feel that not seeing fast results is what slowly makes us veer of track and back into the old habits. You can not look at it that way. The best thing to do is set small goals. Make it fun. When you consume yourself with little goals and reach them to the point of being proud of yourself, then before you know it, you have reached the point where you were wanting to be from the beginning. For instance, on my first weight loss journey I had lost 70 lbs. I then got off track and gained 20 of it back. So my first small goal was to lose that 20 lbs in 30 days. This is the start of day 24 and I have lost 13 lbs. Now I am going to step it up and see if I can lose that last 7 in the next 7 days. I just keep telling my self that "Rome wasn't built in a day" and I didnt get fat overnight. So therefore I will not be smaller overnight either. But I was thinking... stop looking at the number on the scale and pay attention to the small things. Like if your clothes fit loser or you can wear something that you couldn't a month ago or if when you look down you can finally see your toes or how far the steering wheel is from your gut or if its less stressful to bend over and tie your shoes. Its the small stuff. Just like the title of this blog "from a table to a booth." Thats a big deal to me. What is your "big deal?" What small step are you going to work towards first? I do not know who all is following or reading this..but lets do something fun. Leave a comment saying something that you want to achieve. What small goal do you want to do first? What is something that has always bothered you about being overweight that you want to fix? Lets hold each other accountable. Keep your head on straight and when that old craving or temptation comes lurking around the corner...hit it head on with a "No thank you..I won't be stumbling over you today." Love you all! Keep it going! 

It's been one year since I've been on this blog or written my thoughts. When I started this blog I was also on the diet and exercise journey to a new health. Somewhere along the way I got off track and was no longer eating healthy or taking care of myself. It happens. Making a new change in life can sometimes be overwhelming and hard. Therefore it's human nature to get weak and stumble but do yourself a favor and push thru no matter how hard it is. It's then that you are strengthening yourself. If for some reason you get off track, don't waste anytime kicking yourself. Just simply know that it's ok to stumble as long as you get right back on track. I honestly think that at this point in life I am much stronger than before. Things happen that cause you to look at things differently. Life is most definitely a dance that you learn as you go. I am humbled to say that by posting my journey on Facebook I have had several say that I have motivated them with my updates and to keep posting. If what I am doing is helping at least one person push through to a new life change then I am doing what I feel God calls us to do! Help one another! So with that I have decided to begin posting on here for anyone to follow. Nothing I do is for show. It's all for bettering my life for the future of my son and myself as well as be there for the people I love who want to do the same! I can't go without saying that I have the most amazing support group I could ever ask for and I know that thru Christ Jesus I can do all things! Love to all! Let's do this! :)

Get out of your FUNK!!!

Its been almost 6 months since I last posted on here. So much has happened in that time and I have not had the motivation, right mindset, or strength to write and I certainly have not focused on my diet, exercise and health like I should be. I could go into a mountain of details as to why this has happened...but I wont. So many times in life we get wrapped up with the negative, with family, with work, with personal issues, death in the family or just simply get in what I like to call a FUNK. Usually when this happens the last thing we care too do is take care of ourselves which in turn causes a sno-ball effect of issues. 
You start to gain weight, feel bad, and lose interest in activities or like me you let a serious health problem get out of hand. All the while you are thinking.. tomorrow I will make a change or  this one more fat and sugar filled meal wont make much more difference and then I will stop. 
It doesnt work that way sometimes and  then one day you realize that you have been bargaining with yourself, your life, and health for far too long. As gruff as it may sound I consider that lifestyle a slow suicide. Thats just truth. Its a selfish way too live when you have children and family who need you and are watching you. 
My heart has been so heavy lately because one day it hit me and I thought.. not only am I hurting myself but I am hurting my son. He is learning such unhealthy habits and do I want him to live this way in his adult life??
 So once again I am trying to make a change. I am gonna fight this food addiction if its the last thing I ever accomplish. Im tired of living in bondage, fatigue, fat-ness, body pain, feelings of being unworthy, huge clothes, unable to breathe, etc. I flat cant do it any longer. So here we go again, if you feel like this too... I challenge you to STOP!!  Find help if you need it.. whatever it takes to break the chains of the FUNK that you are in.. DO IT! Get up, get moving, pray about it and make a change!!! 

No excuses...

I have a very dear friend/ Sister who is always trying to encourage me too do more. But the one thing she always tells me is..  "your full of excuses!" 

Well.. No one wants to hear that and most get offended by it and why? Because its true! I am the wrolds worst about making excuses and most all of us do! So here is todays challenge...

STOP MAKING EXCUSES! I can't, I dont have time, Im too fat, Im tired, It never worked for me before, its too hard etc. 

Theres that negative stinking thinking again! Tell yourself you CAN. As I was watching the Biggest Loser on Monday night, I watched how hard they work! The exercises they do are far more strenuous than the 1/2 mile I slow walked and thought I would pass out over! Body hurting, legs cramping, heart about to pop out of chest, sweat rolling in unpleasant places, fat jiggling, heal spur aching, dizzy, and nauseated! Of course thats exactly how its gonna feel because you/me have been sitting on the couch watching Biggest Loser for 5 seasons while eating a big ol plate of fat and thinking "Dang my hats off to those people cause I CANT DO IT!" So I am here to say on this day Wed January 30, 2013... put down that plate of fat, grab that friend whose been feeling the same as you and hit the walking trail! Go play some ball! Jumping jacks! Whatever it takes to get those muscles screaming, pour some sweat, and get your heart rate going!!! Its now or never! Stop with the excuses and as my sweet friend would say.. "Git er done" :)

Be a Fighter...

Anything worth having is sure enough worth fighting for and quitting is out of the question. When it gets tough you've got to fight some more! 

So lets just define the word "fighting" ... Webster says 

fighting- is to put forth a determined effort or struggle to endure. 

Hmm.. so that means to be a fighter.. we must be one that puts forth a detemined effort and struggle to endure!!!!

Which in turn brings up the word "struggle"... Webster says  

struggle- is to proceed with difficulty and strenuous effort.

So 2 times in 2 different definitions we see the word "effort"

Im thinking by now we should be getting the point. If we are gonna make any kind of change in our lives it is gonna take putting forth effort and fighting in which you will most likely feel that sometimes its a struggle. 

I myself have always felt like I am a fighter and most of the time I will fight for what I want or what I believe in. But that raises a question even to myself.. then why have I not fought to succeed in the weight loss I have wanted for so long. Have I really wanted it that bad? Have I been lazy? Have I known that it was gonna be a struggle and was afraid of that? Probably a little bit of all of it.

To me its the same as with being a Christian.. Satan is always gonna be there..just like food! Temptation is always gonna be there as with that chocolate cake you love so much! But if you want to fight to the finish for an everlasting life in the Kingdom of GOD and you want to live in a healthy non fat body until you get there.. you cant sit on the couch and wander why your not seeing any results. You have to fight for it. Its a daily struggle to maintain and you must put forth effort to do so!!!! These are 2 things that I feel are worth fighting for.. and if fear is what keeps you from fighting.. 365 times in the BIBLE it says Do Not Fear! So what are you waiting for? Get your mind in fighting mode, put forth some determined effort towards your struggles, and dont be afraid of it!! We can do this...and HE has our back :) 

Its been a while since I have been on here to blog and that may be because I havent done so well on my weight loss journey in the last few months. The holidays were not my friend as far as eating goes. From October to January i gained back 20 lbs of the 70 I had lost. In turn I became discouraged and didnt have the desire to do anything about it. After much praying I decided it was time to stop wallering in my sorrows, stop the oh woe is me, and go for it again. So in the last 3 weeks I have lost 15 of the 20 I gained and I am 5 lbs from being back to where I was with the 70 lb loss!

This isnt easy.. probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do but I believe I am back on track and FOCUSED! 

Key word there is FOCUSED!! If you do not stay focused on what you going for.. you will not make it there! When temptation comes. Stay Focused. If you mess up... its ok just keep going! Stay focused! I am excited to be back on the right track and focused! Its my prayer that together we can do this!!! So I challenge you too....